Re-evaluating

I've been re-evaluating. Not hard when you have hours of empty time stretching ahead of you with no plan, no agenda and no air conditioning.

My evaluations have been focused on me. My home. My clutter. My life. My savings account.

What have I learned? What indeed. I have learned that I can have a good attitude, that I can focus on what's important when I'm not focused on the daily bullshit, that my son is better adjusted when I'm calm. I suppose that goes without saying.

I recently spent a prolonged weekend with some family members, my sister-the-martyr among them. You see where I'm going with this? She's one of the most negative people I've ever known. She complains about everything but is also passive-agressive so that everyone else suffers in the shadow of her suffering.

As she is my sister, it's in my contract that I must humbly admit that I was once like this. I may still be, but I am attempting to turn in my martyrdom for some peace and possitivity in my life.

And you know what? It's working!

Oh sure, there are lots of great things about being a martyr, llike watching everyone around you walk on pins and needles, and the satisfaction of constant complaining. But, at the end of the day, you're dead.

I'm so thankful to not be that person anymore. I'm grateful to the powers-that-be that have helped me grow as a person. Especially since I may be in the midst of a mid-life crisis.

How would you handle a mid-life crisis - sport car or motorcycle. Personally, I'm leaning toward the motorcycle. It might be easier to borrow.